( the thing is - it doesn't feel like a friendly gesture. it feels like how it used to. she's pretty sure mako is going to kiss her, and what's more, she's pretty sure she'd let him.
it's good that he doesn't. the end of their relationship was never about a lack of feelings, and true enough, korra is positive she'll love him until the day she dies, but was instead built on the foundation of that some people can just. love each other more than life itself and still not be meant for each other. they don't need to confuse those feelings. ending the relationship was the right choice, but it still stung like branding iron laying mako's name over her heart. she never fell out of love with him, she just. loved him so much, to know that she'd never be able to make him happy.
that's not even to mention - jesus, asami. a good friend would mention it to mako, at least. give him some sort of heads up. maybe korra's not a good friend. she just wants asami to be here, like seeing her might clear up all these confused, messy feelings. she'd probably know what to say to him, if they said anything at all. really, korra doesn't even know what to call them. girlfriends? dating? she needs to be here.
she just presses a little more on his shoulder, turning her face down so she doesn't have to think about - kisses, or anything other than the sound of mako's voice. pain isn't a good teacher. maybe he's right. but. then.)
Wouldn't you rather feel like everything happens for a reason, instead of just ... ( she shrugs, a little hopelessly. she's just spitting back words that were told to her, once. she isn't sure she really believes it herself. ) Because things and people in our world are inherently bad?
( no. she sighs. she really doesn't believe in any of this. evil is a part of maintaining balance in all things good - there's no reason why anything horrible happened to her, or to mako, or to anyone else she's seen suffer in her lifetime. pain is a product of cruelty, not the universe punishing you for your mistakes.
she shakes her head. )
You're right, of course. I just. Wish I could help make the world ... a better place. Not a perfect one, just ... better.
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it's good that he doesn't. the end of their relationship was never about a lack of feelings, and true enough, korra is positive she'll love him until the day she dies, but was instead built on the foundation of that some people can just. love each other more than life itself and still not be meant for each other. they don't need to confuse those feelings. ending the relationship was the right choice, but it still stung like branding iron laying mako's name over her heart. she never fell out of love with him, she just. loved him so much, to know that she'd never be able to make him happy.
that's not even to mention - jesus, asami. a good friend would mention it to mako, at least. give him some sort of heads up. maybe korra's not a good friend. she just wants asami to be here, like seeing her might clear up all these confused, messy feelings. she'd probably know what to say to him, if they said anything at all. really, korra doesn't even know what to call them. girlfriends? dating? she needs to be here.
she just presses a little more on his shoulder, turning her face down so she doesn't have to think about - kisses, or anything other than the sound of mako's voice. pain isn't a good teacher. maybe he's right. but. then.)
Wouldn't you rather feel like everything happens for a reason, instead of just ... ( she shrugs, a little hopelessly. she's just spitting back words that were told to her, once. she isn't sure she really believes it herself. ) Because things and people in our world are inherently bad?
( no. she sighs. she really doesn't believe in any of this. evil is a part of maintaining balance in all things good - there's no reason why anything horrible happened to her, or to mako, or to anyone else she's seen suffer in her lifetime. pain is a product of cruelty, not the universe punishing you for your mistakes.
she shakes her head. )
You're right, of course. I just. Wish I could help make the world ... a better place. Not a perfect one, just ... better.